Heart

I wonder, can I not sleep cause my heart is beating so fast. Or is my heart beating so fast because I cannot sleep?

Running

Wow. I've been running a lot lately, its hurting too. But it has also been been fun and good for me. Now I just need to start eating more again. Luckily I have a good running buddy, I run down the hill to her house everyday, then I run a few miles with her, then I run back uphill to my house. Its painful, but thankfully its just about the right balance. I have a bit more endurance than she does so it works out well.

And oh crap, I forgot to ask if she wants to go airsofting this weekend.

Opera

I am definately in a quiet mood right now. I'm happy, but thoughtful. It's odd. I'm listening to Death Cab For Cutie "I Will Possess Your Heart" Its a fantastic song. But really I like Death Cab in General.

The two weeks are over and things can start rolling again. :)

I went on a date last night, it was pretty darn fun, she is nice, but I dont think I am interested in her. She's just gorgeous. We went to the opera. I feel cultured now, it was really good.

I'm excited for this week, who knows what adventures I will take.

Happy

I'm poor, I'm single, I have a lame job, all of my friends are leaveing and I'm starting a stressful year of school.

And I'm happy. Ha! How did that work out? I dont know. Sometimes I get in my 'quiet' mood though. I dont really know how to describe the emotion there, I just feel quiet and ... aware. Its strange is as I can feel everything in and around me one hundered fold. But I am happy.

Strange

Again

It seems as though things are finally starting to look up for me again. As far as Love, Learning, and the Busy Life I'm definately going to be doing that again. I'm starting school, which is good, I'm really excited to finally expand my knowlege at a substancial level. That will make me busy as well. As far as love goes. I don't know if I have found love, but I definately found a good canidate. She is pretty, adventurous, kind, and smart. What else could one ask for? I think I'm ready for this stage in my life to re-begin. I never left it, I just took a break from it. I started doing nothing in particular ended up breaking my arm in the process which is now healing. Good thing too, cause I'm getting sick of it being broken.

Lame

Gah! I'm so lame! Why do I persist in doing things that make me even more upset at myself! God! I really want to bitch to someone right now. But I dont think that'll happen

What?

It strange, right now I have no love, no learning and I'm not busy. It's so strange, I was talking about love with some friends of mine (girls) and I just feel..... Gah! I dunno. Its just getting really weird I really want to fall in love, but I also want to be alone, but I dont know what I want more. Hmm.... Why is life so complicated?