It seems as though they are all succeeding in life. Everyone I know: mission, marrage, love, school. They are all getting somewhere, everyone has something to look forward to. Except for me. I'm happy for them, it makes me very happy to see that they are all getting somewhere in life. But eventually it will only be me in the shadows of the hole that I dug myself. Over years I have just dug and dug. By the time I realized it, it was too late, all I could do is keep trying to climb out, each time falling, then digging some more. Then trying to climb out again. It seems so impossible.
Eventually I will move out. Inevitable. Soon. I'm tired of being dependent. And really, I dont want my parents to watch me suffer at my own inabilty to control myself. I am full of greed, lies, lust, envy, arrogance, and despair. I'm am the lowest of the low. I am a solitary peasant amoung kings and queens. I am a fool amoung the wise. I am worm compared to everyone I know, or even heard of.
Humbug man. It frustrates me beyond reason.
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This would be: Chapter three of the recorded life of Jeremy. A much lighter, healther, maybe less pretty version of my writing. Somethings may sound like I am rambleing and somethings may be life fulfilling. Hey, I'm not the oricle of how my blog affects people.
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- Happy person most of the time, I love writing, taking pictures, and having fun!
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1 comment:
First of all, allow me to just say I can promise you that you are not the "lowest of the low". If you truly are a worm compared to everyone you know or have heard of, then you haven't heard of very many horrible people, and trust me, there are a lot and you are not one of them. You are a kind, loving, and understanding person, that much right there puts you above most people. Even if you aren't those all the time (after all, nobody's perfect) I'm pretty sure you are those most of the time, which is more than what many others can say (if that makes sense, sorry if it doesn't @_@).
Here's an idea about your hole metaphor. Perhaps you have dug too deep, and it seems impossible to get out. Maybe a friend throws you a shovel from above (taking care not to drop it on your face ^_^) maybe you'll think at first they're taunting you, telling you to keep digging. But you find they're actually saying to dig sideways and up. Sure it'll be hard work, and there's always the risk of dirt collapsing on top of you, but hey, it's either that or starving to death in your own grave. Life unfortunately doesn't provide ladders or rope that the friend could offer you to climb, as there is no easy way up and out, but friends can still offer encouragement, tools or ideas to help you out of the hole. Maybe the ideas won't always work, and maybe the tools will break, but those who care about you and want you to get out of that hole are going to stay there, and continue to do or try what they can to help, and hope you will eventually make it out. Your friends can't help you dig, or dig for you, you have to make that effort yourself. So you really only have three options, take that shovel and work your way out towards a goal of happiness, keep digging down towards a goal of despair, or stay where you are with the same goal as digging down. The choice is yours, however, I for one hope you choose to get out ^_^
Something to think about anyways...
Take care man!
-Drew
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