Love, learning, and the tired life

Hm... I hate missing people, well person. Geh.

I've started school, its really busy and I'm learning a lot. By the time it hits 9:30 I'm exhasted. I wake up at 5:30 though. I dunno, its good though.

I discovered that I love someone the other day. I've suspected it for a while but I tried to hold off the flood gates, I dont know what to do now. Its upsetting, I'm not afraid to do anything, but I don't want to be in love right now, there are more important things. Not to mention... before I persue her, I want to be everything I want to be, which corresponds with what she wants me to be. I think she might like me back. I can wait though. She is worth the wait.

In the name of waiting

Tired

I'm really tired, and I'm really dumb. I dont really think I want to interprit what that means either. Shoot, I really should be sleeping right now, but I'm too busy not sleeping.

I miss love. I would take any of them back in a heartbeat. I know I would, little good it would do me though, it would end up in flames, just as it did before. There has got to be someone out there for me, somewhere..... maybe.

I'm trying to turn my life back around again. I'm doing a terrible job at it. I can get to a certain point easily, but then it all just haults at a standstill. I'm feeling kind of retarded, maybe I am. I wouldnt be surprised if I found out.

All my friends are going on missions, I'm really happy for them, but at the same time I am sad, sad that they are not going to be around, and sad that I can't make myself be better. I have less control over myself than anyone else. That is sad.

Goodnight